bummer

My friend didn't ask me to be one of her bride's maids. I'm a little bummed out by this, not because I especially wanted to wear the dress or any of that. The title shows how much I mean to her, in her life. Apparently, not much. I'm definitely not top 5 or 6. For some reason, I expected her to ask. When she began mentioning all the other people she had in mind, I was a little shocked. Her ditsy college friend is a bride's maid. (Obviously, it's a girl I'm not too fond of.) Each time I get a little down by it, I just tell myself this is really nothing to be sad about, but she says something again to fuel the feelings.

For instance, she just called me right now and said, "I just realized you're the only one of my friends bringing her boyfriend. Which means I have to find a table for you and danny..." Hmm..once again, rubbing in the fact that I'm not going to be a bride's maid. I can tell what she's doing too. She's been testing me, asking me questions so that I won't be that sad.

I think most of my frustration is exacerbated by that fact that I though she would be my maid of honor. I especially hate it when people ask me, oh are you in the bridal party? Ugh... Oh well. Just more icing on my cake of disappointments for the year.