That's right - oh shit. What have I gotten myself into? Are there ever moments in your life where you have to stop and wonder how you got yourself into it? Literally...I've stopped a few times now and thought, what the heck am I doing!?
I have to argue my first motion in court on Monday afternoon. That gives me today and tomorrow to prepare for my argument, in addition to all the school work I have to get done. I'm freaking out here. What's the worse that can happen? I lose my motion, and that's a rather big deal to me. This isn't stupid mock trial anymore (which I didn't make), this isn't practice for my externship seminar class (which I don't excel at). This is real life. I can't help but wonder, if I'm not that great at the fake stuff, how am I going to do well at the real thing!? And I go back and forth too, like a nut case. I think, oh shit, oh shit, in one moment, and then, I can definitely do this, in the next.
On top of this mess, I have my freak of a father who's still on my case for saying the f-word two weeks ago. I repeat - TWO weeks ago. Get over it, man! We're still not talking to each other, but at this point, I can care less.
I just want to win the case. I want to win. I want to know I can do this AND win, not just do it. Man...what have I gotten myself into...
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