experience

Nearly a week has gone by since my last final and the start of summer vacation, and I haven't really accomplished much. I've been hanging out with family every single day, taking them shopping and spending time with my grandma. It's been nice, and I guess if I didn't have responsibilities, I could do this everyday. It just so happens that I need to find a job very soon...just can't seem to get around to doing it. I'm definitely lacking motivation here. The fact that it's "summer vacation" seems a bit weird still. I have three months to so something meaningful. If I had it my way, I'd just go up to San Francisco and relax.

Myra has been driving me a bit nuts. I've been very annoyed with her and I've only been talking to her for a couple days, a few minutes at a time. To me, she lacks sensitivity. She asks me to help with her bachelorette party, a duty that's traditionally for bride's maids, but then tells the other BMs that I tend to be controlling. Why the hell would they want to plan with me then!? It's true. I can't deny the fact that I'm a bit of a freak when it comes to organzation and planning. But I'm not a bully with group work. And besides, I can't help but think, it's this the 5 bride's maids' job? She also asked me for a ride up North and then a ride back down. I'm a bit speechless at the moment. I'm that good of a friend that she asks favors from, I guess I'm still not that good of a friend to be a bride's maid. Danny did remind me, he hopes that I won't drop her off my friends list. At this point, I can't help but wonder the same. The other day, she called me to ask for a ride, and then said she had to go because she was picking out dresses. Nice. I didn't need to hear that, but that's fine.

I need to get my shit together. If I had something more important to focus on, maybe that fact that I'm not a BM wouldn't bother me as much.

Random story - I went to the spa a few days ago. It just so happened to be a naked spa. I tried to keep my wimsuit on, but was told I needed to take it off. I had my reservations at first, but then I thought, what the heck...go for it. I couldn't help but feel like people were sizing me up..literally. A competition - whose breasts are nicer, who butt is firmer. Being naked wasn't the problem. I was bothered by the people looking at me! Well, it was a very new experience. It's good to try new things, and I learned hey, maybe I'm not that prudish.