New Plan

I've tried many plans, I realize, but I have a new plan. Since my dad is no longer speaking to me (for the 50 billionth time), I've decided to channel my anger and frustration to self-improvement. I went to the gym and tried a cycling class for the first time. It kicked my ass in so many ways. Nevertheless, I got through it. I even got kudos from the instructor.

At this moment, I'm waiting for my dad to get out of the kitchen so I could get myself dinner. I really shouldn't wait though...I should just go in and get whatever I want. But I'm tired and I don't want to even create an opportunity for argument, so I'll just wait.

At work today, I got a voicemail from my mom. She left this sad message saying how sorry she was, how she knows that I'm sad and how that makes her sad as well. She then lectured me over the phone -- correction, over voicemail-- about how I am not to say a single word when my dad talks or lectures me. She said keep still, keep quiet and it'll end. Psha. I now keep quiet not because I'll admit defeat, but because I'm emotionally and even physically to tired to argue with him. My mom cried as she left the message...probably feeling guilty that she couldn't help.

Lesson #1 - The greatest lesson of them all - Know when to get a divorce. The only thing worse than a bad relationship is actually staying in a bad relationship.