oh shit.

Another oh shit moment: I looked at the calendar today. After this week, I was will two very short weeks to finalize my Bar studying. I'm feeling very very uneasy right now.

My horoscope said today:
"Doing the same old thing in the same old way isn't working for you now and it's crucial for you to break out of any patterns that have served their purpose. Part of your problem, however, is in the difficulty you have distinguishing what you call a groove from a rut. Don't let your attachment to the past keep you needlessly attached to it for too long."

Seriously, could that be any more on point!? I've been stuck in the flow of studying that I feel hasn't really taken me very far. I need to crank up the gear, folks. I never, ever want to spend another moment studying for this exam.

When I lay in bed to go to sleep, I get these mini anxiety attacks in fear that I won't pass the Bar. My mind starts racing through the list of "what ifs." What if my laptop breaks down during the test; what if I need to go to the bathroom too much; what if I'm late one day for the exam; and worst of all, what if I don't pass.

Yeah, it's not the end of the world. It's not even the end of my world. Still, it may just feel like it for a long time.