shit.

Shit, people. I am so completely screwed for the Bar exam. Seriously. I have never felt so hopeless and helpless before in my entire life. I keep asking myself, how can this be? How can it already be July? Where did the time go? What the hell have I learned?! How the heck am I going to pass this test!?

I'm slowly accepting defeat on this round. Yes, it's too soon to accept defeat, and my optimistic side (what's left of it) is telling me to fight the fight. But this time, I think I might feel okay with failing the first time and coming back for a second round. I'm preparing myself for the worst, so that I won't be too heartbroken to pick myself up and fight in Round 2.

Damn. This really really sucks. Those of you who will never take the Bar, be kind to the test-takers. It is truly by far the worst experience in anyone's professional career. My dad asked me the other day, "Haven't you been studying for the past three years? What can be so hard?" Ahhh...the ignorance. NO! I haven't been studying for the Bar for the past three years! I've been going through the useless motions of law school!

I'm telling you, law school doesn't teach shit for the Bar exam! I have paid over $30,000 a year just to be taught something other than what I need for the Bar.

Like I said - shit. I feel like I've just thrown $5000+ down the drain. Yes, it's costing me that much just to take the damn test. I really hope the 3 days go by fast. They most likely will be the worst three days of my life...until the next time I take the Bar. Just hope that doesn't have to happen.

*sigh*