Found it! I found my motivation. I went to class today, sat in lecture, did practice essays, listened to Mr. Adachi try to convince me how important it is to study...and nothing. Then, during break I overheard a group of students talk about the attack plan, how they submit essays to BarBri for review, how they decided to email each other to make sure everyone's studying. That got to me.
I'm competitive, but probably not competitive about the things I should really care about. I'm competitive about foosball, the answers to random trivia questions, Cranium and Taboo, go-cart racing, and just about anything else that's meaningless in the grand scheme of things. But when I overheard the group talk about their strategies and how much they've done up to this point, the lightbulb went off. I thought now would be a good time to put my game face on.
It's for real, folks. Maybe it's because I'm no longer drugged or maybe it's because I'm finally feeling the fear of failure. Whatever the reason, I'm much relieved to discover I have some drive left in me afterall.
I called BarBri today to ask for their Winter pace schedule. The woman on the phone said she couldn't send it to me. I told her it must not enough that I paid her company $5000+ last summer and another $1500 this winter. She told me since I was only enrolled in Essay Advantage and not the full BarBri course, she couldn't forward me the two pdf pages. Then she suggested I make my own schedule. Zing!
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Share some of that 'ah ha' stuff with me! I am still lost in the world of the distracted and unmotivated. Now I understand why the pass rate for repeaters is so low. Let's not be in that group.
Jen, I completely know what you mean! My problem was, and still is to some degree, I think I should have passed. I'm so hung up on it and I resent the fact that I have to do this again. I think sometimes, it's okay to go through the motions without the emotions. The emotions (motivation, drive, willpower) will catch up soon enough, and at that point, at least you won't be behind with the studying. Force yourself. I study at a library with no internet access. That way, I'm forced to pass time with the books! You still have 7 weeks! Sending you passing wishes!
I can get you a copy of the winter paced program.
Ernie, BarBri wouldn't give it to me! They're evil. I'm putting together my own schedule based off of last summers. When I'm done with it (sometime in the next day or so), I'll post it! Keep your eye out for it.
I think I know who the girl on the phone is...b/c she went to my school
And believe me, she is a complete biotch in real life!
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