Eight. I was 8 MBE questions away from passing last July. Yes, 8 is alot, its not 2 or even 5. Still, when I think about it, I could have easily gotten 8 more questions right. If only I had studied harder, if only I had memorized the rules and tricks better, if only I had focused harder during the actual exam...then I wouldn't be here, writing this.
Perhaps I'm still not over it. In fact, I get angry every time I have to do another stupid MBE problem. People tell me I can't think like this, that I need to channel that anger into motivation and drive. My response: screw you. If you haven't had to take the Bar exam twice, then you really aren't in the position to be telling me how to channel what into where.
I'll never get over it! I'm so angry that I need to pay nearly another $700 on the actual exam, another $400 on a hotel room, and put up with the stress of it all again.
I need to be studying harder. I need to care more. I feel like I'm going through the motions again, but I'm lacking that desperate need to pass this time. If I don't pass, what's going to happen? I've already humiliated myself before. I've already felt the crushing devastation of disappointment. I mean, failing again just means Round 3, right?
I think my problem last July was that I simply didn't know the law well enough to distinguish right from more right on the MBEs. Since I'm not spending time making outlines, I have more time to go over the law again and again. So how come I'm not doing it?
Argh. I'm going to do my property MBEs now...
2 comments:
I feel the same way. I think the first time around we were able to get through it since it was all just part of the process. I enjoyed the process, I saw a light at the end of the tunnel. This time, every moment that I study just reminds me more that I failed. The 'repeater' process seems like it could be endless... This part stinks.
I agree. First time, it was what was expected, you just follow the crowd and plow into the bar review study mode. Now, everyone supposes that you remember the law from before, can somehow study more and study better, and will be even MORE motivated to pass. But, why is it then that all of us are struggling with those things?? I, too, am sort of in the boat of - so what if I fail again? It can't be much worse than it is now. I've already been through it... but, man o man it sucks.
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