The old nightmares about the Bar exam are officially back. I had one over the weekend about forgetting to upload all my answers. When I realized, it was my wedding day in August. I was screaming...literally. I woke myself up because I was so loud.
Last night's dream was about the actual bar exam. I opened the book and it was a simple torts question, but I had no idea how to answer it. It had all these pop out pages, like a child's book, where I had to draw and color. The other exam takers were all talking and I couldn't understand why. It was all very chaotic. When the proctor called time, I had written a paragraph and colored a deer. Nice.
My friend emailed me last night and asked if I was panicking. I told her no, I simply didn't care this time around. Truth is, something about me is panicking inside. I wouldn't be having these crazy dreams otherwise.
My brother called me yesterday 3 times. When I finally got around to calling him back, he tested me on civ pro. To put it mildly, I wanted to shove his phone where the sun don't shine. He was asking me about the difference between a 12(b)(6) and a demurrer vs. a motion for summary judgment. He's been an attorney for all of...oh let's see...a little over three months and he's trying to give me lessons on the law. My eyes were rolling so far in the back of me head, they almost popped out.
I've been spending most of my time at the library. I still haven't memorized the law enough to do as well as I need to on the MBEs. But for some reason, I have faith that I'll get there. I suppose faith simply isn't enough on this test, but I keep thinking, I was so close last time. I can do it again.
The best example of my indifference - I realized the other day that I had completely missed a day for my hotel booking. For some reason, I thought, Bar exam = Tuesday through Thursday. Hotel = Tuesday through Thursday. I was lucky enough to get a room for Monday night, but had to pay a hefty price of $300! So now my hotel alone is costing me a little over $700.
I think the only thing motivating me to pass this time is that I simply don't have the funds to do this a 3rd time!
2 comments:
Hey~ Did you say that Prof. Holz is doing a PT seminar? When & Where?? How do I sign up?
Just wanted to say your blog made me LOL. Your experiences are so similar to mine as I am also trying to battle the Bar demon a second time around!
I constantly have dreams that I just simple forget to go take the bar. Just simply going about my day and then realize I missed the bar. It's terrifying!!
feel free to check out my blog about the bar:
golnoushg.blogspot.com
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