I am not able to offer you a position at this time.

* deep sigh *

I'm so...tired, frustrated, annoyed, and completely sick of this job process. This week, I'm waving my white flag in the air. You win.

I just received another rejection letter. What more am I supposed to do here? After talking to people with and without jobs, I've come to the conclusion that applying the good old fashion way isn't going to cut it. Submitting my resume, going through the process of interviewing and sending a thank you letter is not enough. I have to know someone, or know someone that knows someone.

I get so down. If I didn't get the job, who did? How was that person a better candidate? Was it strictly job experience? In my moment of desperation, I was tempted to email the employer today and just ask. My sister then had to bring me back to the real world and remind me I shouldn't seem so pathetic. Can't help but feel a little pathetic anyway.

When I didn't get offered a position, I'd hear, "It's okay. Something better is coming your way." Sure, that would do the trick. I'd feel better and chug along. Now...haha. Now, I'm beginning to understand there really isn't any job that's "better" than the next. They're all equally important because each one is an opportunity to work.

When I take my life day by day, it really isn't so bad. I'm able to cope with my situation by doing what I should be doing - finding jobs and applying, over and over again. When I take a step back and reflect on the week, the month, or the year, that's when I start to panic. I'm very much afraid that I'll be here, sitting at this very desk, doing the exact same thing next year. I don't think I can accept that. In my mind, enough is enough!! There are times when I'd rather give up on myself than keep running in circles like this.