And so it begins again...

It was a lovely 3 weeks. Pure bliss. No worries. Waking up at 10 or 11am everyday. I absolutely loved winter break. Christmas was cozy, new years was quaint. I spent this past week in san francisco, my true home. Now I'm back in the hell hole. Well, tomorrow I begin another semester. I'll be working at the DA's office two times a week and taking 4 classes. The whole transfer thing is in limbo at the moment, since the admissions committee at that school decided to go on vacation and not return in time to review my application. I'm quite annoyed, to say the least. If they don't review my app, I'm going to have to ask for my $75 back...which they probably used to buy holiday eggnog for the office.

I feel refreshed, only because I don't have to return to the apartment. I made my final move on new years eve with danny. It was pouring rain that day, but we managed to wrap up my bed in plastic throw it over the 4Runner. Danny then tied it down in the rain. We were both drenched, a but it was a very "cleansing" experience.

I expect that things are going to be really weird when school starts again. I have to see them in class and on campus. Hopefully, I'll be too busy to care. I don't mind eating lunch by myself, or running errands on my down time.

H did text message me on Christmas. I never responded. I just can't. I'm so much more dissapointed with her than I ever was with Caroline. But today, I'm a stronger person. I have learned not to trust people so easily. The best part about this break was that I spent literally all my time with family - the only people I can ever trust. We may hate each other at times, but I am truly blessed. My younger cousins are my best friends, and my sister, as frustrating as she can be, makes me laugh all the time.

I'm not really mentally prepared to start another semester. In fact, this is the most least prepared I've ever felt. I haven't even bought any books, and I'm just now realizing all the reading that was assigned over break...which hardly makes winter break a "break." I'm just gonna dive in. At this point, I really don't think there's much that can happen at school that can make things seem worse. It's not so much about staying positive as it is being realistic. I'm just going to try to remain true to myself and keep in mind the people and things that are really important to me. I'm going to stay focused this time around. No more side drama. The goal is to find a job for the summer and to work hard to get through my classes.

Looks like another happy 2006.