Wink

Since January, I don't remember losing any sleep over this exam, like I did during Round One. Even this past week, I slept like a baby. Last night, however, I didn't even get in a wink. The adrenaline and excitement of finally defeating this shit kept me awake throughout the night. I think a part of me didn't want to sleep, in fear that it was all a perfect dream.

After the most divine day at the spa and browsing downtown, I made it home around 7pm. I took my time all day, and it actually kept my mind off of results for the most part. I completely lost it during my drive home, though. I was crying even before I walked into the house.

It happened just like I had visualized a hundred times in my head. The room, the computer, the daylight - I had seen it all before, with one slight difference. I had my sister check the results for me. I could not get myself to type in the numbers. I was so afraid I wouldn't see what I desperately needed to see. My sister entered my info and asked me about 20 times whether she should push enter. I cried and said no, no, no. She stopped listening to me, pushed enter, and paused. It was the longest couple seconds of my life.

If you were sitting still at 7:20pm-ish and heard a horrific sound, that was me screaming my head off. It was fabulous...just like I had imagined.

To my fellow Round Deuxers that will be taking it in July, I completely admire you for your strength. I will be here, thinking about you everyday, pulling for you.

Thank you, BBs (blogosphere buddies) for your support. Really couldn't have made it without you.

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